Not Where I Wanted to Be

Friday I stopped to take this photo as I was finally leaving the hospital where a friend had just come out of the operating room. He had had an emergency gall bladder surgery and was doing well but I myself felt trapped in the building. The back of my left knee was killing me with pain and I wasn't sure I'd be able to walk to my car. I did hobble down the steps and drove to my own doctor. Thank god it was Friday and the practice was still open. They fit me in for a bit of triage evaluation. While the pain was bad, I  was most worried that it might be a blood clot. I was sent for a doppler imaging and phew! there was no sign of a blood clot. 

My husband had a friend drop him off so he could drive me and my car home. Boy, it sure was not going to be me driving my beloved stick shirt! Pushing the clutch in was hell. Two Aleve and a nap later helped a lot. In many ways now, I realized I really was just overwhelmed with my husband's own medical issues which seem to have no resolution. So far.

But I was so grateful to have my him drive me home and also to get me an iced coffee. (No lunch while I waited in the surgical waiting room to find out about my friend.) I slept in today, meditated, journaled and see what small steps I can take in my own life today.  Just for today...I'm ok with being where I am.

AAM Monday: February 17, 2014

It seems strange that this is a holiday because I think of President's Day as Feb 22nd. That shows my age but the other thing is that when you are retired, all days are holidays! And on the other hand, while I was still working for the General Assembly here in MD, holidays didn't happen for us. The General Assembly meets for 90 days and while we didn't work Saturday or Sunday, it sometimes felt like we did.  But that's the past and today I'm sharing a page from an All About Me challenge at Designer Digitals.

I was pretty worried about making my appointment with my knee doctor with all the snow we've had. The appointment I had earlier was cancelled due to the first big snowfall that seems to have lingered in one way or another, usually with just more snow. MD doesn't cope with snow the way states who get it on a regular basis do.

Worry also extended to what my future options might be. I was not in an upbeat mood that day so the page came at a perfect time to scrap the emotion out! Art Therapy. It works.

It never rains but...

It seems like it's almost pouring.

1.When I came home from the cruise I learned the details about a 40sumthin' friend who had a heart transplant.Gloria was only on the list for two weeks (!!!) when she had the transplant May 22nd. She has yet to wake up which is not a good thing at all. It's possible her husband may have to make one of those terribly difficult decisions. I visit and talk to her but it's hard to know if she is still 'there'. What must it be like if she is still in that silent immobile body?!!?

2.We found out about a week or so ago, that one of our granddaughters has aplastic anemia. She is getting frequent blood transfusions while waiting to see if her little brother can be a bone marrow donor. Such little ones with such serious, life threatening issues. Bekah and Michael are out in Arizona but their mom has put a journal up on the web for all to follow the daily ups and downs. I shake my head in wonder at the idea of trying to keep a home sterile to avoid infections when Bekah is home.

3.Another friend is very very sick and may be on the liver transplant list. She too has a compromised immune system and is prone to getting sick at the drop of a hat.

4.And what is that you saw at the start of this post? Half a tooth. I broke a tooth when I came home from Charlottesville today. It does feel as tho a lot of things are falling apart right now. I know it all will pass but some of these situations seem mighty heavy right now. The tooth just seemed to be a symbol of not being able to get a handle on so many of the other things.

Payers and healing thoughts are so very welcome.